Heart broken
I joined this subreddit just to post this because I don't have anyone to talk to about it and it's tearing me a part inside.
Short story: today I came home from work to find out my dog (raven) has attacked my other dog (bailey). Raven has 0 bite marks or injuries. Bailey on the other hand had to go to the ER. I'm taking raven to the shelter tomorrow and I can't deal with the pain of losing her.
Long story: I used to be ravens dog walker but about 5 months ago my gf and I adopted her. She had been diagnosed with severe anxiety and her old owners had health complications and couldn't take care of her any longer. Raven was going to go to the shelter and I knew that she had severe anxiety. I knew that if I didn't take her in no one els would. She would destroy curtains , have panic attacks every night, was super anti social and didn't know how to dog at all. Her old owners said she was like a cat and rarely showed affection, but as soon as we got her she was attached to me. She would follow me everywhere and I instantly fell in love with her.
After getting her we immediately realized that she would be lots of work. She kept us up every single night for the first month as we slowly figured out what triggered her anxiety. As we learned more about her she got better and better. She eventually even started playing with our other dog bailey. At first she would growl but bailey made her a part of the pack. It got to the point where sometimes they would cry if the other one was out of the house. Everything was going well, then one day I come home from work to see had destroyed the bathroom walls. While I was furious, I don't reprimand her because I knew she had mental shortcomings. I reached out to her old owners and told them that I could give rae all the time in the world, all the patients in the world, but I can not afford to pay to fix the apartment we live in if she kept destroying it. The old owners reached out to the shelter she got raven from and we organized for her to go away for a week to a behavioralist. 2 nights in, the lady contacted us and said she's never in her 15 years of work seen anything like this. She spoke to her vet friends and they said she probably has a tumor and should be put down. I was heart broke. We took rae back from her and after a couple of days she was a completely different dog. Since then she has woken us up once at night and hasn't destroyed anything. She goes on walks with me and we have a strong bond. Then today happened. I came home from work to see blood all over the bedroom wall. I saw that bailey was covered in blood and had bite wounds all over her. I checked rae and she has nothing on her. It looks like rae cornered bailey and attacked her. I'm so sad, so hear broken, I'm at a loss for words. After spending countless hours, so many nights and putting so much work into her this is how it ends. Bailey is my gf's therapy dog and now she doesn't even want to be around raven. I don't have a choice but to take her to the animal shelter. I know she can be a good dog for someone but the circumstances have to be right and I don't know if that's ever going to happen.
I am so mad at raven but I'm not showing her that I'm mad because I know tonight might be the last time she ever feels loved. What's the point of yelling at her right? My gf is devastated because bailey is so good that she didn't even try fighting back. I want to tell her how sad and hurt I am about having to let raven go but I know right now she's more worried about bailey.
I don't know how I'm going to deal with this tomorrow and for the foreseeable future. I know I did all that I could for raven but I still feel like I didn't do enough.
Submitted February 22, 2020 at 09:59PM by 24sabin
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